Beck Diet Solution: R2 Day 3

Eat sitting down.

I believe that I've improved in this area. I ate all of my cookies while sitting down yesterday. Sigh. Oh, well.

Eating while sitting down is important because I need to be conscious and mindful of every bite that I eat. No more sitting down at the computer while noshing. No more snacks in front of the television. Sit down and pay attention. Anything else is just a bad habit. I resolve to do better with this, even if I'm eating the wrong stuff.

This whole sitting down thing feeds into my sneaking food - and that's a pitiful thing to admit. I will sneak food if I think no one is watching and that somehow that food doesn't count. I was reading a blog where the writer mentioned the same thing and it really struck a chord with me. I do that to. Just what we all need, more shame in our life. I vow to try to stop all of that. Eat what I will, but be adult enough to acknowledge it by sitting down and eating in a proper manner.

It was a weekend o'drama at Reata North. Not as much drama as there could have been, but certainly more than anyone would have liked. I don't know if it was unavoidable - of Bick's decision on how to handle this, I'm not sure. After numerous attempts to contact Sandy stretching over days and days, we went over to her house on Saturday morning. I stayed in the car, as was agreed upon and Bick went to the door. He told her he was there to talk about her grades and school and she refused. Said she didn't want to talk about it. So he told her that he was taking back the car and he and the car would be available when she wanted to talk. He told her that she didn't have to show him her grades but he didn't have to pay tuition, car, books, etc. So he got in her car and drove home.

She emailed him Saturday night with the whole story. She hadn't earned 2 Bs and a C as she had told him at one time - she earned 3 Fs and dropped a class. He went and picked her up from work and they talked a lot about lying, deception and that he was most disappointed in the fact that she hadn't been honest with him. He came home relieved, I think. He asked her to contact me this week so that we could talk about ways to get her back on track, from an academic perspective. She came in when she picked up the car and I hugged her and told her that I was sorry she was having such a rough time. We'll see if she follows through.

I still think there could be some more to the story, but I am hopeful that she will tell me the truth. Did she just not go to class? Was the work too hard? Did she get behind early and just not ever catch up? I will encourage her to take advantage of any special help programs that her school has. I know that she's young - out on her own for the first time, etc. I just wonder if there are depression, alcohol or drug issues that might be contributing factors. My gut feeling is that she just wouldn't go to class, but I don't know that. But if that is an issue, hopefully she can set her schedule to mitigate that somewhat.

Her dad did tell me that she was unhappy going to CC, that all her friends were away at school and she was stuck here doing this. Bick told her this was all he could afford. I'm not particularly sympathetic to her plight, but that's my personal baggage, so I will have to keep my mouth shut if she plays that card with me, as I don't know that it would helpful for me to unleash the "life isn't always fair" speech on her butt - she is not mine to educate - on any level.

Her mother has seemed very unconcerned in all of this. I don't know if Sandy is telling her Mom the real story and her Mom doesn't feel any obligation to tell Bick the truth when he asks, or if she's keeping stuff from her Mom, as well. But the family dynamic between the three of them is definately NOT my business and I'll avoid that like the plague.

Our plans to go to the Mango Hut on Sunday to work were scrapped, obviously. I went out and hung out with my Mom and sister and to look at a few things around there that need to be worked on. I'm trying to work out a plan/methodology so that I don't get so stressed about stuff whenever Mom calls about something needing to be done about this, or that. I'm going to come up with a plan on projects in order of priority and that way it will be easier to say - that's not on our list of priorities to work on right now. We've already started this project and I want to see it to completion before starting something else. I think this will keep my sanity intact.

Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Develop a plan.

-Roxie